Just took the new stronger medication they gave me and I’m already feeling one side effect.. throwing up! And it sucks because it’s hurting my already sore mouth.. and the pain I feel in my mouth, and abdomen is unbearable! When will it end..
Doctors appointment ruined my bright outlook.. just more problems. My liver is still enlarged from the GVHD.. and etc.. etc.. they gave me a higher dose of steroids.. which means a greater chance of side effects.. now to go home and sleep! They want to see me again.. Friday!
Still sitting here at the docs.. i swear I might as well just live here! I’m feeling in high spirits today, even thou the pain is killing me and my throat feels like it’s on fire! Got to take the good with the bad.. Hope your all having a beautiful day!
Here’s a tip for the do-it-yourself crowd: Go to your computer’s Start menu, and either go to “run” or just search for “cmd.” Open it up, and type in “ping [website address],”
Once you have the IP for a website, all you really need to do is enter it like you would a normal URL nd hit enter/press go. Typing in “126.96.36.199” should bring you to the front page of AO3, for example, just as typing “188.8.131.52/dashboard” should bring you straight to your Tumblr dashboard. Since we’re obviously bracing for the worst case scenario which would involve you not being able to access the internet regularly, you should, save this list.
Dear Tumblr-ers, -ites, ettes, and whatever other things you may prefer,
Please reblog the crap out of this. Add to it if you feel there is stuff necessary but missing.
The pain is a little bearable today! I’m still a little lost with everything and i’m just trying to take things.. one day at a time! sometimes that’s too much! Anyway.. doctors appointment today. SMH.. that’s the only time I get out the house!!!!
If tumblr does blackout tomorrow.. I want all my FOLLOWERS to know they’re absolutely wonderful. They’re the kindest souls I know and every single one of y’all are beautiful. All thou I will go crazy without this blog.. just knowing someone on the other side of the computer cared.. is enough to try and hold on one more minute.. we can do this y’all! We’re not alone.. it just feels like we are! Love.
If this SOPA bill and IP act cause Tumblr to shut down I will be beyond pissed. Tumblr is my escape and it’s what keeps me alive! Where would a lot of us be without tumblr.. where would a lot of us be without anywhere to express ourselves. We need TUMBLR to survive atleast I do. NO ONE Or NO THING understands like tumblr!
It’s all too much! My head is messing with me.. I can’t take the pain. I just wish it all would end. It hurts physically to talk, to eat, to move! Medicine isn’t helping.. I can’t drive, I can’t sleep.. and I have no help.. the one person I want to tell this to I feel he won’t understand.. I haven’t eaten in going on 4 days.. I haven’t been outside my house but to go to the doctor and it’s killing me. I used to be an active person, dirt biking, partying, dance, kickboxing, gymnastics. Now, I have to work my life around my sickness.. I can’t be in crowded places, and when I do leave the house I have to wear a mask because the slightest infection could kill me.. doesn’t sound so bad!! Then the medication and there side effects.. I look horrible.. death has to be better then this!!!!!!!!
Do you feel alone? Not physically alone, but mentally alone. Do you feel helpless, hopeless and useless? Do you feel like a piece of shitwith an empty future? Do you feel distant and disconnected from the rest of the world? Do you want to get away from everyone and everything? Do you lack the motivation to do anything? Do you want to sleep your days away because your so tired?